Another Birthday
The sun came up again today I hear;
It’s hard to tell sometimes, obscured by cloud
In March. But year after relentless year
It comes. Another number on this proud
But aging body, bent but not so old
That woman mine can’t re-ignite the flame
Of raging fire in loins that, sometimes cold,
Can heat to loving touch. There is no shame
In periodic failure at a time
When some cannot get rise when duty calls.
While medication helps some in that climb
To passion, these old bones still scale those walls.
She stands behind just now with candle bright
And whispers, “Now!” To bed! To you, GOOD night!
Indifference
Awake, sleeping woman, open your eyes
To what is happ’ning while you gaze away.
This circumstance can break a child. So why
Do you allow indifference to betray
The trust a vulnerable boy would give
One to whom respect ought be expected?
Naive in youth, one thinks the right to live
Should be free from this. Could he, rejected,
Thrive in such a cold and unhappy place?
Is it possible to mature alone,
To learn the ways of life without a trace
Of nurturing touch? Or do you bemoan
Your choice? Do you regret the path you chose?
This life before you sees. He feels. He knows.
Absent Heart
The memory runs hot when ere I walk
On foot-worn paths oft traveled in my youth;
Eyes shut, but still with vision as the hawk,
Images flood the brain, can’t paint the truth
In rosy hues. Not able to connect
With pleasant happenings that surely were
A part of childhood, time cannot correct
The wrongs done to a child. He was not there,
As growing up, the learning of the ways
Of a difficult world weighed down the soul
Of a troubled boy given to displays
Of sadness, loneliness, heart less than whole
In pain of wanting more, a young boy cried,
But he who brought me out would run and hide.
Bluesman
Sing me blues, my gentle music man.
Play me heartache, heal the painful soul,
The hurting heart with their sweet empathy.
The music cries loss, sadness takes a toll
On the musician. He feels acutely
Raw with the deep emotion of the song
He plays. A mournful rhythm, minor key,
Evoking distant memories. A long
Slow riff, slide guitar, sad refrain, he sings
Tragedy, wasted time, relationships
That, going nowhere, pull at his heartstrings,
Make him weep. Something deep within him rips
Music out to the surface. Hear his voice,
Transformative. We listeners rejoice.
Sweet Dreams
These tender, vulnerable bodies rest
So still at midnight chime and lighthouse flash;
Below the window, roiling whitecaps crest
And fill the marsh with turmoil. Thundrous crash
Belies the vision here before my eyes,
As sleeping babes, ignorant of the storm,
Lie statue-still. Outside, black, cloud-filled skies
Smother a pale moon. A ship sounds forlorn,
Its lonely call disturbing nighttime still,
But shan’t awaken those whose night is bless’t
With peaceful dreams. A father’s heart is filled
With joy at this pure sight of evening’s best
Moment. I lie awake each night, it seems,
And revel in the light of their sweet dreams.
Daughters
Two small life-changing people make my days
More meaningful than ever. These two girls
Affect me in so many subtle ways.
I can’t begin to describe how these pearls,
These precious gems of human nature prove
There is a God. And when I see them smile
At me with pure unconditional love,
They make the worst of times all seem worthwhile.
When out-of-control emotions take hold,
These miracles make can shine their magic light
Where darkness lives, illuminating old
Worn-down feelings and make them all seem trite.
Two gentle people can my spirits lift;
Their sweet existence is the greatest gift.
Gabriel’s Conceit
She makes a difference in so many lives
With great intelligence and empathy,
A sense of humor and a heart that gives
So much more than it takes. But she can be
Even more. Poet, partner, shoulder, muse,
An inspiration for so many deeds
Of kindness, strength and wisdom. She will use
Skills gained o’er paths of struggle, unmet needs
That, when ignored, did heartache daily bring.
A sense of hopelessness forged in the heat
Of misplaced angers that a boor would sling
Unprompted did unleash the calm conceit
Of better times. And now radiates pride
That bathes the fortunate those by her side.
Writing Time
The silence after midnight shouts so loud
That I can’t ignore it’s call. It’s when I write
The truest things. While others sleep, the cloud
That hides what I feel lifts. I await the night
To record the deeper, more painful stuff
That rattles round and makes the daytime hard
To traverse. A masquerade is enough
To get by, but night brings out and forward
Silent screams that need to be heard if I
Have any hope of seeing the next day
Through with reasonable outcome. To die
A little inside, but keep thoughts at bay
That do betray a quiet anger might
Help me find real catharsis in the night.
Plain
The country roads beneath my feet define
A not-so-distant past. Yet still, in some
Parts of this place the roads mark a straight line
To another time, when people called home
The farms and fields that daily provide food
For the gentry of the now. We partake
Of bounties as they ever were. The good,
Great stewards of the land so proudly make
A life in this community. The rich
Bounty we all are fortunate to share
Is just as it ever was. Progress, which
Can be a burden, make the farmers care
About what they do each day to adhere
To ancient customs ancestors held dear.